The Camgirl Diaries

For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted to change the world. Be memorable, in some way. It’s why even though I make enough money to get by I’ve taken back up writing. It’s a call into the void – let something I do be enough!

These chronicles are meant to give a peak into something unknown, something taboo. However, as I write it has dawned on me – am I a cliche? A pretty girl fucking around on social media until she realizes this makes more money with her clothes off? After all, there are thousands and thousands of people on these apps and sites. We can’t have all landed there the same way?

But does it really matter how we landed? Either way, our stories are essentially the same. Some surely have stories far better than mine, even. However, I continue to write while I can before I dash off to “work”, because the life of a struggling artist doesn’t pay the bills. Maybe someday.

I hope this story is unique. I hope you can find interest, not disgust, in the things I write. We use idioms like “the flip side of a coin”, or ” however flat you make a pancake it has two sides”, but since when was everything all or nothing? Good or bad? From where I’m sitting, there’s almost nothing in the world with two sides besides those coins and pancakes. We also say shit like “everyone is unique as a snowflake, no two are the same”. I think that may be a wild over-exaggeration as well.

So you tell me. Am I interesting, or just like all the rest? As I type into the void, I may have to answer this question for myself.